| Half Way There |
[Apr. 18th, 2007|12:05 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  excited | ] |
So I am back in Waterloo for the week. I wrote one exam yesterday, it went pretty well. It was a choice of two essay style questions out of 10 different ones. I had the opportunity to choose the ones that I best knew the answer to.
My next exam is Friday morning. I have all of the essay questions for it, I just have to sit down and collect my thoughts for each answer. Once I am done that late Friday morning, my dad is coming up to help move my stuff out. I just have my bed (hence why I need him), my record player and CD's. Othen than that stuff and my suitcase of clothes for the week, there is nothing at all to move. I will have to vacuume and clean up a little bit make the room presentable.
After all of that is done on Friday I have the Murder Mystery at Dundurn Castle with Scott. I bought my dress a while back and finished buying all of my accessories last week. I am very impressed with the way everything looks together. I am really hoping to get Scott's jaw to drop. That would be pretty awesome! I am sure it will be no trouble, he thinks I am pretty in the morning when I wake up (I think that is when I look most scary). I am very very excited about the dinner!
I should really start studying and stop wasting time on the Internet. Wish me luck on my final exam! |
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| Awh man! |
[Apr. 10th, 2007|01:33 am] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  amused | ] |
Dearest crazy lady,
I love how you live in a fantasy world where every day is opposite day. Hearing about your delusions makes me laugh hysterically.
You may want to seek professional help. On second thought, please don't... your psychosis amuses me far too much!
Sincerely yours,
Kayla |
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| I blinked and it was gone! |
[Apr. 3rd, 2007|03:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Waterloo | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  accomplished | ] |
First year lectures are done. I made it through unscathed and with pretty good marks! A's and A-'s for the most part on all of my essays. Hopefully I maintained at least a 75% average. I am sure I did, but I am not positive because I don't have all of my marks back yet, so we will see.
I have until the 11th to declare my major... I am putting it off because I want to be sure. I don't know if I want to transfer over to Renison and take Social Development Studies, or if I want to stick with my major in psych and minor in SMF with options in other things.
What I do know is that I have to take a math course and a language course. Now I just have to choose which language I would like to butcher best. :D
I am ordering pizza tonight, the one I have been contemplating for a while now. I am sure it will be interesting. I am going to wait for Breanna to get home first to see if she wants to go with me, until then... I am going to have a beer and take in the fact that...
I AM DONE MY FIRST YEAR OF UNIVERSITY!
I feel very accomplished and relitively smart!
Yay me! |
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| Spring Has Sprung |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|04:40 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  good | ] |
I believe that spring is for new beginnings. The blooming of all that is pure and natural.
It is beautiful outside. I was able to wear only a tee-shirt and was still very warm. I look forward to enjoying the outdoors again. I am going to start walking again, now that I will be able to without worrying about slipping on ice.
4 days of my first year of university left. Getting a test back tomorrow and doing a review for my English class. The rest of the day will be spent writing an essay and picking up my jersey from the mall. Finally found the pink Leafs jersey!
Thursday I am handing in an essay and have 3 lectures throughout the day.
Friday I have no plans. I will probably spend the day studying.
Saturday I will be going to my dress rehersal for the choir concert on Sunday. Any time I am not doing that I will be studying for one of my two finals.
Sunday is the concert at 2 PM at the Cedars, a church in Waterloo, just off of my street (how convenient).
Monday I have one test, I am not sure if I will have a lecture that morning.
Tuesday I have a final exam for psych and another short essay due. Then I am DONE until my two finals in late May. I am slowly going to start moving my stuff back to Hamilton. Going back to work part time, or however many hours they will give me.
The only definite plans I have so for for the summer is April 20th and May 18th. Going to a Murder Mystery at Dundurn Castle with Scott. That was his birthday present to me. The 18th of May, Scott and I are going to see the Tragically Hip in Erie. My birthday present to him. I am very, very excited for both!
That is all for now.
Go outside and fly a kite. Or something to that effect. |
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| Prague |
[Feb. 27th, 2007|04:56 pm] |
Tracey, I can say that this decision is inpart due to you going to Africa.
I have decided to apply to a summer program in Prague. It is credit toward my B.A. to study for a month in Prague. I am going to apply this weekend while I am home.
I will leave June 30th and be home July 28th. The way I look at it is, this is a once in a life time opportunity, if I don't apply I am going to regret it.
So that is my plan for a month out of the summer.
Any thoughts? |
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| Vagina Cupcakes |
[Feb. 14th, 2007|12:20 am] |
My roommates and I are celebrating Vagina Day tomorrow. No Hallmark cards or romantic gifts, just cupcakes with icing vaginas on them.
I look forward to spending the day with them. Alyssa is going through a recent breakup and Breanna is single. I am in a very commited relationship where candy and cards don't mean I love you, but a surprises never hurt. Plus I already bought the sappy card.
Hopefully it keeps snowing, I would love a snow day tomorrow. Stay in bed all day and read.
On that note. Longest and happiest relationship I have been in. 13 months on the 13th day. Today means more to me than the 14th ever could. I love you Scotty!
Everyone rejoyce and celebrate Vagina Day! |
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| Walk for MS |
[Feb. 9th, 2007|09:51 pm] |
Hey guys, I am doing the Super Cities Walk for MS again this year.
As you all know, my Uncle Mike was diagnosed 20 years ago and has since become bed ridden. As well as Scotty's sister Shannon and brother Johnny have been diagnosed and have been suffering with the illness as well.
If you could donate any money at all to the mission to find a cure I would really appreciate it.
You can donate online at -->
https://msors.mssociety.ca/walk2007/Sponsor.aspx?L=2&PID=897865
Or you can give the money to me any time.
Thanks guys, I appreciate this! Help us find a cure! |
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| Dear Facebook.... |
[Feb. 4th, 2007|02:35 am] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  grateful | ] |
Some people may think that you make for a creepy stalking tool. At this moment you are far more than that to me. You have just reconnected me with my childhood, friends from my past and my home town. For that, I am very thankful. |
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| Woo money! |
[Jan. 18th, 2007|12:04 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  happy | ] |
I have not updated in a while. I have been busy with school and with other such things. Lets do a quick recap since Christmas.
Alright, Christmas morning, I went to Scott's to open presents. He bought me some of the most amazing things. One being a Lite Brite, because I was deprived as a child of it. Next, the squishiest most adorable Eeyore ever. Not to mention the beautiful diamond heart necklace.
After presents, I went to my sisters for dinner. That's about it.
Worked the next couple of days. Then came New Years, Scott and I made the trek to Niagra Falls in the morning. We spent the afternoon playing Skee Ball, shooting ghosts, riding on a giant ferris wheel, and looking at wax figures. We made the trip down to the Canadian side of the falls and got miserably wet. So we decided to go take a nap in the car. After our nap we got up and did some wandering around Niarga, and then ventured down to look at the light display in the park. We watched some Forigner, and got absolutly drenched. Countdown 3, 2, 1, kiss at midnight while watching the fireworks.
We drove home without pants on, I mean really, have you ever had to sit for an hour in wet pants, not fun. Shimmied our way out of the parking lot and drove home.
The next few days are a blur. I moved down to Waterloo on the Wednesday, didn't bring any of my stuff. I went home on the weekend and moved it all down Sunday night. Started classes like them well enough. Adore my roommates, they are amazing.
This past weekend, Scotty and I celebrated a VERY happy one year of being together. I made dinner on Friday and Saturday, we had hamburgers one night and pasta the second. It was pretty fun. Saturday night Scott and I switched pants. Scott looked gay and I looked like I was wearing "Mom Jeans". If you are unfamilliar with what "Mom Jeans" are, look the SNL skit up on YouTube.
Did the school thing for the past couple of days. Went to see Blood Diamond with Keving last night. Tonight I am going home for the weekend. AI work Friday during the day and then am going to have a sleepover with Larica. Saturday Scotty and I are getting together and some time over the weekend I have to go see Leanne.
Now, for what inspired this post in the first place. I came home from school today for my break between classes and got out of my car. As I was closing my door and facing the garage I saw something kind of shiney sticking out of the snow. I thought nothing of it, but decided to check it out anyways. So I bend down and pick it up. I came inside, unfolded it cause it was folded into what looked like a ribbon, to discover that it was really a 100 dollar bill. I checked it for all of the signs of a real bill and it had them all. I FOUND 100 DOLLARS IN THE SNOW! I was very pleased to say the least. Come on, I get excited when I find a quarter! I don't think I would complain if I found another 100 dollars tomorrow.
That's all for now. |
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| Ho! Ho! Ho! |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|01:22 am] |
Merry Christams Ya'll!
Hope Santa is good to all of you. |
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| It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas! |
[Dec. 13th, 2006|05:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Bedroom | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | None | ] |
Except, we still have yet to have a decent snowfall that stays on the ground. I have started my Christmas shopping, but am nowhere near done. I have to get a present for my cousins, that is 10 presents, but believe me, I am going bargin hunting for them. I have gotten presents for my dad and for Scott. I know exactly what I want to get Larica, I saw it while I was out the other day. As well as I still have 2 or 3 presents left to get Scotty.
I went back to work at Build-A-Bear for Christmas, I am getting pretty good shifts, I wish I was getting a few more though. I am working 14 hours next week. I would much prefer to be working somewhere around 20. Which really would be 1 or 2 more shifts. It is better than nothing though.
I am really glad to be home. I have been seeing Scott almost every day, for a few hours when he gets home from work. The other night we went out with Rob, Bill, and Bills friend Cameron. It was pretty fun. I can say I haven't laughed that hard in a really long time. Those guys are fucking hillarious.
Tonight I am going with Scott to his dentist appointment. I hope to god he mentions something about how he grinds his teeth at night and gets some sort of guard. It has gotten a lot better, but it is not good for his teeth.
In other kind of strange news, my friend Dustin moved out to BC a few years ago. There, he became really good friends with this guy Gabe. Gabe is a funny guy who always started conversations on MSN in the weirdest ways. He and Dustin would go on webcam and perform "shows" where Gabe would play his guitar and Dustin would try to sing. Anyways, long story short, Gabe hung himself November 26th. Kind of strange news, cause he didn't seem the suicidal type. But then again who does, it is always the ones you least suspect.
I cannot wait for Christmas this year. I love the whole getting together as a family, eating dinner and opening presents. I am going to take Scott out to my sisters Christmas Day for dinner. I told my dad about it; if he doesn't want to be there with Scott, that is his loss and I don't care because I am not missing out on spending Christmas with Scott and my family again. They totally deserve to meet him. Most of them already have, here and there, but now they will really get the opportunity to get to know him.
I moved out of my cousins, and have the lease for my new place in Waterloo. I met Breanna and she is pretty awesome, I think her and I will get along very well. I just have to sign the lease with her on the 16th or 19th of this month.
I only have 2 exams left. One for psych and one for philosophy. Both I hope will go well. I should really step up the studying I am doing for both. Today I am also going to see if my book lists are posted yet for my classes and see when auditions are for my vocal ensemble class. I am very excited to get back into singing.
Happy 11 Months Scotty, and Happy Holidays to everyone else. |
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| Blah! |
[Nov. 23rd, 2006|05:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Sociology | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  calm | ] |
I have 2 essays due, one in a week, the other in 2 weeks. I have all the information I need to write both essays, but I am so unmotivated. I am doing one on maternal filicide as related to post partum depression from a sociological perspective. The other on adolescent female aggression leading to adult female aggression from any perspective I would like.
I got my tattoo, it turned out beautifully. I am really inlove with it. I also have made plans to move. I saw a house just a few minutes from campus which was beautiful. A shared townhouse with 2 other girls, free range of the whole home, aside from the basement which is the other girls bedroom. My own bathroom. I was very impressed. The girl who's parents own the house, Breanna and I are going to get together some time soon to talk about living together. I am very excited. I will only be living with Terry an Paula for one more week. Next Thursday I am bringing everything home with me after class. I am going to see if my dad can come out some time during the week to take some of my stuff home, like Bob, because he cannot come to class with me :(
I am very excited to be moving into a place that is more my own. So far Breanna, from her single e-mail seems very nice. Hopefully we get along well.
Blah feminism! I really have a strong dislike for the feminist perspective. Almost as much as the Marxist one. Grr, I am not oppressed by men, I want to have a family and be a mother. Not because I am being forced to, but because I want to dammit! |
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| Tattoo |
[Nov. 18th, 2006|01:26 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | HOME! | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | None | ] |
I went with Leanne to Metal N Ink today so she could get her tattoo. while we were there (for 5 hours), I got to Mel the girl who was doing the piercings and working the desk about the design I want. So she and I started drawing it out. It is a treble clef with the top made out to be the pink breast cancer awareness ribbon. The bottom where the treble clef ends (or starts, depending on how you draw it) has been made to be a 3 leaf clover. Above the design is my moms initials MAO and below is 17/03/98 (self explanatory) curved around the design. It turned out so beautifully that I booked an appointment for tomorrow to have it done. So as of some time after 3, I will be permanently marked. I am excited.
Failed my Phil midterm, really have to redeem myself, other then that I have not gotten anything lower then a 90, I was pissed. I really should have studied.
Scott and I are super, as always. My dad knows about us, and is being rather tolerant, he just doesn't want my car down at his place. I agreed, I mean, it is better then sneaking around.
Tomorrow, or rather later today, I am helping Scott move Johnny into his mom's house. We are taking a break to get my tattoo, then it will be back to moving. Around 5 I am going to head to Tammy and Andy's to spend the night with Julia while the other 5 go to MONSTER JAM (should be read while imagining the announcers deep, raspy voice, with the sounds of crushing metal in the background). I am excited to spend time with her. I feel like I am missing out on so much. She is in grade 4, it is that age where they start to like boys! Sheesh, she is growing up soo fast.
Tonight, I babysat for them as well. It was the 3 boys. Zak is getting so clear with his speech, and Natty read me "Chicka, Chicka, Boom, Boom," I wanted to cry. They are all growing up so quickly. I hate being away from them.
12:23 and all is well. |
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| You Know What? |
[Nov. 9th, 2006|02:11 am] |
Today I went on a hunt to find soup. Much harder a task then most would think, but anyways I did. On my trip I wound up at Conestoga Mall. As I was leaving I could smell pot, it reaked so bad. I found the source of the pot in the form of a mother and father clearly too young and too fucking stupid with their two little girls, one walking and one in a stroller passing a joint back and forth. The guy was clearly fucking baked, stumbling all over the place, grabbing his wife(?) by the back of the pants and acting like a complete asshole. Then what really got me is one of the little girls coughed. It could have been for many different reasons, but I tool the fact that her parents were smoking really potent pot to be the reason.
HOW FUCKING STUPID AND SELFISH CAN YOU BE? I wanted to run both the fuckers down or call CAS on behalf of their kids. That is just unfair for them to grow up around. At least give the poor kids a chance.
Now that I am done with that rant. I will move on to the typical first year student rant.
I really wish I was doing something other then university. Traveling, performing, working. I feel as though I am not accomplishing anything. I know it is all brought on my my midterm marks and that is due to the fact that I slacked off. Now that I know what is expected I can shape up and do better. I wish I could see the end result so I know it was not all for granted.
If I could do anything it would be to perform on stage. Singing, acting... mainly singing. I am going to look into finding an open casting call for... well... ANYTHING really. I just want to start singing again. I miss it so much. I sing in my car during my commute, but I feel so empty because it is just pop songs. I am not REALLY singing the way I know how to. I feel very unfulfilled.
Aside from those two small rants, I really have nothing else to complain about. I am in a totally fulfilling and satisfying relationship. I could not imagine being happier with anyone else. People find it odd that Scott and I don't fight, and when we do it is very short lived and we both know that no matter what, everything is going to be fine in the end. I have never felt that kind of unconditional love before. It is refreshing and very appreciated.
I am not seeing as much of my family as I wish I could. I really miss my cousins. I don't want to miss out on watching them grow up. Natty is playing hockey now and I really want to go see him play some time. Julia and Ben are growing up so fast, it is scary. Julia is almost 10, the same age I was when my mom died. I remember how grown up I had to be in grade 5, I don't want her to have to deal with any ounce of that. I really want all four of them to enjoy childhood to its full extent and not have to grow up any faster then they have to.
I am very much looking forward to this weekend. Thursday I am spending the night at Leanne's and going to get my hair cut on Friday morning hopefully. Friday afternoon Scott and I are going skate shopping, then I am treating us to dinner at a place he has chosen and kept secret. After that we are heading over to Valley Park to go skating, then going from there to Mountain Arena to continue our skating. That will be followed up by hot chocolate, my request. You can't go skating without hot chocolate. Then back to his house...
Saturday Scotty is treating me to breakfast before we head over to the Remembrance Day parade. After that it will be off to my cousins with Larica to babysit overnight. I am very much looking forward to this because it will really give Larica and I a chance to talk about everything. I love having someone I can talk about all of my fears and annoyances to. Larica is really the only person aside from Scott that I REALLY talk to. I am able to hold a conversation with anyone, but it is only with those two that anything really gets said.
There is nothing in the world that beats pizza, movies, boy bands, and just talking to your best friend. |
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| Adjustments |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|05:01 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol | ] |
You adjust the way you sit, you adjust your hair, your necklace, you adjust the way you walk to accommodate new shoes... so with all of the adjustments we make without even putting any conscious thought into them, why then is it so hard to adjust your entire life to accommodate new priorities?
I am finding it so difficult to adjust to being away from the most important people in my life. I have never spent any time away from my immediate family. I have spent 8 years of my life within walking distance of Larica, now I feel as though we live in different continents. I feel out of the loop on everything. Not that I need to be the first to know, but I feel as though it is done and finshed by the time I first hear about anything.
I feel like I live way the hell out in Bumfuck, Idaho... and I am now a distant thought to everyone, in the sense of "Oh, remember Kayla... wonder what she is up to these days..." I never get emails anymore, I don't get phone calls, I am assuming because of my FUCKING ridiculous schedule, which as I am now discovering may be great for my learning because I am awake, but is awful since I no longer have any kind of social life what-so-ever. "Kayla, we are going out, wanna come... no I can't I have class until 10." Goodbye social life, it was great knowing you.
Now, I am not complaining, because I am doing well in class. I am also very happy. But you know what would make my day? Being able to go out to dinner with my boyfriend during the week, or talking to him before he is so tired from working all day that he can't stay awake. What right do I have to be annoyed with him, it is by no means his fault that I am the one who has class until 10, and don't get home until 11. I am selfish to think that anyone who gets up the following morning should accommodate me because I don't get home until after they normally have been asleep for over an hour.
So what do I say when people ask what I do during the day. I tell them, "Oh I just do my reading for class." What does that really mean, it means, I spend from the time I get home from class, until the time I leave for class in my room, in my pyjama's, in bed, reading. I am such an interesting person. It is not that I am lazy, it is just I feel out of place spending time in other rooms of the house. I wish Terry would finish the fucking basement that was in his own words "Totally going to be done before Labor Day", it is what now, OCTOBER? He asked Scott to come up one weekend to help him, Scott came, Scott waited, did they work on the basement... nope. Gah, I think that is the biggest piss off. I don't even have a space I can call my own, take control of, and feel comfortable in.
For the most part I am happy. I see my dad on weekends, I see Scotty and my friends on weekends. I wish I could have more then 3 days, it hardly seems like enough time to see people. I am just so glad that everyone has been so patient with me. Espically Scott; he does so much for me. I know 100% if I need him he will be there. Which is a very comforting fact, espically because I miss him like hell. Even though I am only away from him during the week, I miss him.
I am getting into a routine which helps. I am also discovering a freedom I didn't know before. I like it, but at the same time, it scares the hell out of me. I am not used to being able to do the things I want when I want. It is just a shame that I can't do those things in Hamilton, it is a little bit harder close to home. I am always on edge, I hate it.
I really hope this starts to get a little easier. I really want to see Kevin. It seems we have such conflicting schedules that it is impossible to get together on campus. I am going to put some more effort into it.
I am also going to put some more effort into adjusting myself into this new life. Eventually, after tossing and turning, you always find a place that is comfortable... and fall asleep. |
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| Long Way From Home |
[Sep. 14th, 2006|10:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Guelph | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  peaceful | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | None | ] |
So I have officially started university. It is a little scary to be honest, but I am adjusting well. I have met a few people who are in more then one of my classes, that has made getting to know people a tad bit easier. Unfortunately, since there is atleast 500 people in each of my classes, it makes them a little difficult to spot.
So far this week I have had only 3 classes (one each night), I have two classes today and then I have Friday off. This weekend my brother is having a BBQ so I am heading up there on Saturday for it. I am hoping my new "great" niece is there. Hooray for being a "great" aunt.
Scotty and I are very, very good. We were both a little skeptical about how this would work out, me being in Guelph and being in school while he is home from work. I didn't plan that one out too well. Next semester I will definitely be planning around that better. Yesterday was 8 months for us, neither of us could be more thrilled about how happy we are, despite the distance. Just thinking about when I get to see him next gives me butterflies. I am oh, so in love.
I have some reading to do for some classes now, I am going to be bogged down with reading for hours each week. Thank goodness it is one of the things I love to do most. |
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| I Wanna Be A Cool Kid Too! |
[Aug. 16th, 2006|06:29 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | Edge Of Seventeen - Fleetwood Mac | ] |
Because of Traceys peer pressure to be cool...
Take your username and using song titles that mean something to you fill in the letters with an appropriate song. If that makes no sense... use this as a map.
I >< Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
N >< Noise And Kisses - The Used
T >< These Eyes - The Guess Who
H >< Halleujah - Rufus Wainwright
E >< Everlong - The Foo Fighters
A >< Ape Dos Mil - Glassjaw
B >< Bobcaygeon - The Tragically Hip
Y >< Yellow - Coldplay
S >< Send The Pain Below - Chevelle
S >< Scared - The Tragically Hip |
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| T-Minus 3 days and counting... |
[Aug. 5th, 2006|04:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Sacramento | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  jealous | ] |
| [ | Momentary Music |
| | Vacuum | ] |
We said goodbye to Teresa, Doug and the kids today... at 3 AM. I went back to bed in the trailer, so comfortable. I woke up and had some breakfast, nothing too exciting.
Scott is off at the wedding today. I am sure he looks very handsome and I am terribly jealous that I cannot be there to witness it. Lucky ladies who are there with him, they better keep their hands off, for that boy is mine, 'nuff said.
Today my cousin and I went out shopping. I found a really nice bathing suit I liked, but the price was too rich for my blood. Now I am going to have to try else wear, or just wait until the season is over and buy for next year. Bloody bathing suits can bite my ass.
Some lady's grandaughter had a seizure or something at Best Buy today. She was freaking out. I didn't feel any sympathy for her. I felt kinda cold and heartless. Seems to me she was being a little over dramatic, it's not like the kid wasn't breathing. That would have sucked.
All for now though, gotta set up my cousins new webcam.
Home soon! Yay! |
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